Ever had a decision you had to make and didn't want to? You could see both sides and didn't really like either one? I am in that place today so ya'll get to see how my mind works in decision making time.
For 3 years I was a girl scout leader in my area. I loved it! The girls were so creative and sweet and we did lots of activities. Then I started going to college part time and felt that I needed to step down but there was nobody to take my place. So, I kept leading but didn't do as good of a job because I was too busy. I started asking other people to take my place, other moms in my troops or other leaders in the area. I found one lady who would take the brownies but sadly, she died in a car accident. Another lady took my cadettes but nobody else stepped up. I had to step down because I was going to be schooling full time in the fall and I knew I wouldn't be any good to the girls.
During one of the final leaders meetings, the head lady asked if anyone would be a delegate for our council to go to the thrice yearly meetings in the city and report back to our council. Nobody stepped up. Shocker! Anyway, I felt guilty that I was stepping down and leaving a gap and that nobody else was stepping up so I raised my hand. Sigh. I have a hard time saying no sometimes.
Well, that was a stupid decision on my part and now I am stuck. The 2nd meeting is tonight and I don't want to go. I already had to bail on the first meeting because it was during an exceptionally busy time and now I am faced with The Decision. I do not want to be a delegate. There, I said it! I am not involved with girl scouts at all; I have no idea what is going on! I am no help to our council and I will most likely not pay attention even if I do go to this meeting. My husband was a little pissed that I was even a delegate, apparently I had forgotten to mention it to him. He says I should back out of the whole position but I feel bad about it. I already told one lady I would carpool with her and I hate to back out the day of the meeting. Sigh. Decision making time. Should I honor my husband and back out? Or should I follow thru with my obligation and go to the meeting? I am torn.
I think I know what I am going to do, but I want to think on it a little more.
Have you ever had a tough decision to make? One that was in a gray area, you know, something not cut and dried, not black and white? Tell me about it.
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